Went out to meet xuening & jillian at kopitiam , before went out went searching for my thumbdrive and found it inside my washing machine =.=!! After that bus down to kopitiam to meet them had breakfast there first then cab down to school . Feel very fcukup cause of my thumbdrive then went over to bedok inter to meet with simon and alvin . After that intended to go back hougang mall to buy thing , but went up alvin's house to wait for yifeng . Ask-ed xuening to accompany me go hougang mall and she accompany me . Walk over to hougang mall and she went "mad" , LOL ! Had alot of joke when walking over to there and had lunch at pepper lunch first and saw some familiar faces at hougang mall . Then went over NTUC buy thing and went up to mini toons to buy present , after a long decision then brought a big bird thing . Then went buy curry puff for them to eat then walk back to alvin's house again and xuening gone mad :x ! Saw yifeng at alvin's house , slack till 10plus and went back home & Yifeng told me alot of thing . LOL :D !
what am i really thinking ? why must i go until to this stage ? had i really give up everything ? including of my studies ? i really wish to give up , but it is really hard for me . could anyone understand how i am feeling now ? i really dunch wish to cont my lifes anymore . it is really painful inside me , only you would take out that knife out of my hearts . i really nothing now .